Struggling Christian: Just trust

what can i say
to a question you might ask
they roll around in your mind
and in silence you will not find
and your soul fills with doubts

not to question, not to try
would be a travisty against time
the joy of failing is sweet
never pass up a chance
you might get to dance

what you might gain
what you might see
or feel, hear, touch and smell
will make it all worth
the hurt you might of had before

so ask your questions
my actions are my responce
do not trust me only your heart
it is not up to us
there is only One to trust

Struggling Christian: Me

It is starting to come to my attention that this blog is reaching a far greater audience then what was expected by me when I first starting writing this. Therefore I have decided to postpone a blog that I want to publish to write this one to describe myself so that you may have a foundation to why I am currently writing this topical blog.

There are two things from my childhood that my family constantly tells me and is worth me remembering for it has weight for who I am today. The first is when I was about 6 months old my mother took me into see my doctor. While there; the doctor told her one important piece of advice; that she was to get a hold of me because if she did not settle me down I would "rule the family". After that I spent half of my childhood in the time out chair. The other half was spent meeting people and talking to them. My aunt tells me every time we get together that when I was growing up "there was no such thing as a stranger to me." I talked to everything that moved and built relationships with those people.

Early adolescents nothing happened. Yet in High school is where everything started to come together for how I ended up here. The first thing was I was involved with leadership activities in high school. I can give you the list if you want but lets just say the list is extensive, the places I have been for trainings. The adult that was really pushing me was Marcy Bloomer a teacher that had a classroom across the hall from my locker. She became my second mother because for whatever reason I do not have a close relationship with my parents. We can stand each other but I do not let them know what goes on in my life.

Junior year Marcy passed away and I went into a hole. 3 months later I accepted Christ and did better. I did stuff with the church yet not growing as a Christian. Routine of me doing stuff with the church yet not embracing the Christian walk went all the way until last February and decided that I was done living the secular life and focus myself to pulling myself out of the cavern of the secular to walk to the narrow road of a Christian with out falling into the other side of the path into the cavern of the Religion. (I am still pulling myself out of the secular life.)

Today where am I in the different aspects of life.

School, taking a semester off and will be going back to Butler next fall. Do not want to because I feel like it is a waist of time but I made a promise to people and I will keep it.

Work, I work as a Baker at my father’s bakery. It is not that great but it helps me support my ministries.

Travel, I am currently starting to get things packed away for a mission trip to Hungry to help a conference go smoothly. The speakers that will be there are some of the most articulate and if you want to listen to some of their speeches please go to www.euroleadershipresources.org. 2 weeks after I get home I will go on my second mission trip to Mexico. I will build a couple of houses.

Theology, Christianity is the only way. This is a much broader and narrow statement then can be defined on a paper with my limited assortment of quality words. If you have questions about this or do not understand then the next one will be the reason why I believe Christianity is the only way.

Philosophy, Christianity has the distinct ability to answer any question with a quality answer. There is no question that has been asked by a person who was seeking in a loving way that has not been able to be answered.

Relationships rejuvenate me period. Right now I am single for a reason but that reason will soon be null-in-void, but until then honestly I am very happy being single and staying that way until the reason has left. Friendships on the other hand I cannot have enough of them you can ask people that I consider friends I will do anything for them. I love my friends and thank God every day for them. OKS are sacrificial in their loving.

Future will only be limited by my laziness and procrastination tendencies.

This is me. As for the reason for writing this themed blog, I just hope that it is helping some one somewhere though the trials that they go through. Questions about this can be posted on comments and I will answer them there so that others can see my response.

P.S. This statement is only for reference in a future blog and has nothing to do with anything right now. (It was not has hard to do as I thought it was.)